Work and things

[louiselux]

Work fretting, some venting

Next Monday's meeting with my research boss bears a sad likeness to an oncoming juggernaut of crushing doom, where I'll get my arse kicked for not having done enough work.  All meetings make me feel like this, though. Perhaps it's just meetings. 

It's true, I haven't done quite enough work, although I had Bad Arm for a month. Quite honestly, I've been rather depressed about the whole project all summer. I feel like I'm stuck in the mud and lacking in direction, which is not so good when when I'm paid enough to give myself a direction and go.

But feeling unhappy about it has lead to Putting Off that which should be DONE TODAY. Putting Off leads to anxiety, which leads to worry and increased Putting Off, which leads to me being scared of meetings.

Oh, enormous amounts of bum.

But I'm not worried enough to let it spoil my weekend, which will be spent in delightful Tynemouth, at connotations. I'm very excited. Very, very. I've even printed out some of my fic to bring, like toscas_kiss said to.

I'm thinking of bringing some doujinshi too-- Saiyuki and Death Note, some of which I now remember I said I'd scan for lebateleur, but never actually did. I suck, I'm sorry. 

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That's great news! I can force you to write more fic. :)