Work and things

[louiselux]

Work fretting, some venting

Next Monday's meeting with my research boss bears a sad likeness to an oncoming juggernaut of crushing doom, where I'll get my arse kicked for not having done enough work.  All meetings make me feel like this, though. Perhaps it's just meetings. 

It's true, I haven't done quite enough work, although I had Bad Arm for a month. Quite honestly, I've been rather depressed about the whole project all summer. I feel like I'm stuck in the mud and lacking in direction, which is not so good when when I'm paid enough to give myself a direction and go.

But feeling unhappy about it has lead to Putting Off that which should be DONE TODAY. Putting Off leads to anxiety, which leads to worry and increased Putting Off, which leads to me being scared of meetings.

Oh, enormous amounts of bum.

But I'm not worried enough to let it spoil my weekend, which will be spent in delightful Tynemouth, at connotations. I'm very excited. Very, very. I've even printed out some of my fic to bring, like toscas_kiss said to.

I'm thinking of bringing some doujinshi too-- Saiyuki and Death Note, some of which I now remember I said I'd scan for lebateleur, but never actually did. I suck, I'm sorry. 

Comments

[daegaer.livejournal.com]

I am with you on the feelings of doom and meetings that are just enormous amounts of bum. I am skiving off meetings today and tomorrow on the grounds of having mysterious pains, even though the doctor said it's probably nothing.

I have so much fic printed out that I am entirely embarrassed about bringing it.

[louiselux.livejournal.com]

Hee hee! Your picture is in the dictionary next to 'prolific'.

I'm glad the pains aren't life-threatening, btw.

[daegaer.livejournal.com]

I fear my picture may be next to "doesn't know when to shut up"!

The pains are merely annoying, and can only be assuaged by the printing out of fic on my work printer :-)