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Yo, fic. That list must've helped.

Fandom: Saiyuki
Pairing: Hakkai/Gojyo
Warnings: unbeta'd bondage, explicit m/m, not worksafe
Notes: for [livejournal.com profile] theladyvampire, who wanted Gojyo tied up. Don't we all?




Their bed was small. Hakkai wanted a bigger one, but they’d never bought one. Gojyo wasn't even sure why, but it'd never seemed to be important enough. Like right now.

He pressed his face to his bound-together forearms and breathed against his own skin, open mouthed and unable to think. Hakkai was touching him, his fingers moving inside him, sinking in slowly, drawing out. Gojyo clenched his fists and the rope around them bit into his skin. He flexed his muscles, straining against it, and the wooden bed frame creaked. Hakkai moaned very faintly.

"You won't be able to get free," Hakkai said.

"You wanna bet?" Gojyo said, hearing his voice all strangled and low.

He didn't want to get free, that was the freaky thing. He tried not to think about it too much.

"I trust my luck, Gojyo," Hakkai said, softly.

He heard the faint rasp of Hakkai’s zip and the rustle of cloth as Hakkai pushed his jeans down. They had actual real rope for this. It didn’t break so easy, Hakkai had said. He’d fetched a coil of it from the outhouse and Gojyo had stood naked, letting him wind it slowly round his wrists, and when he’d done that he’d dropped to his knees and had put Gojyo’s cock in his mouth, sucking him desperately until Gojyo had come, messy and loud. Hakkai's mouth was just--

"You didn’t come home," Hakkai said, "for three nights."

"As if you give a shit who else I screw," Gojyo said, the last word turning into a low groan as Hakkai pushed inside him. "As long as you get some."

"Yes," Hakkai said, and his voice was shaking and very soft. "That must be it."

Heat bloomed over Gojyo’s skin. He stared down at the rope and licked his own skin, tasting sweat. He was hard again. His cock hung heavy and hot between his thighs. Hakkai hadn't touched it and Gojyo wanted to ask for it. Maybe Hakkai'd make him beg. He was already tied up like a stray dog.

Instead, Hakkai slid his palms up Gojyo's spine, spreading his fingers possessively across his across his shoulders then stroking back down to hold his hips. He held Gojyo still and worked himself in deeper with little thrusts, hips jerking a little. He was silent but his breathing was getting louder and his nails began to dig into Gojyo’s sides as his thrusts got harder.

"Did you enjoy her?" Hakkai said, his voice thick.

"Them," Gojyo said, swallowing. He clenched his fists tighter and the rope stung where it rubbed. He looked over his shoulder and bared his teeth. "Three fuckin' hot babes."

They had been, too. It was just a game, he knew that, but they got into it a little too much. Maybe it was something to do with who they were. What they were. He should shut his mouth and take it and just get off on this, but he just couldn't stop pushing, once they'd started. Reckless, Hakkai had said, once. And then any other thoughts he might have had were burned away by the hard, shocking slap that landed on his ass. He arched up, unable to stay still.

"Gojyo," Hakkai whispered, sounding all hot and shaky and on the edge. "You shouldn't say things like that."

Hakkai was probably right. Except what they said to each other never seemed to matter. Words were spoken and burned away. He nodded and felt his face heating up and when Hakkai did it again, he arched back into it. The third time, his skin began to sting and Hakkai was moaning pretty loud, fucking him faster now, his hips slapping up against tingling skin. He could feel Hakkai's hips jerking out of rhythm, and the bed creaked and thumped against the wall.

"Gojyo," Hakkai said, and his name just a heated whisper in the air.

Another slap, hot and stinging, and then Hakkai reached round and took Gojyo's cock in his hand, stroking him almost painfully hard.

But I always come home, he wanted to say. The words rang in his head, stupidly plaintive, but he couldn't make himself say them. Hakkai knew it anyway. He twisted his head to find Hakkai staring down at him. Their gazes locked and then Hakkai was leaning low over him, still fucking him. Their tongues met before their mouths did, and maybe that was what did it, that and the high pitched moan trapped in Hakkai's throat, the uncontrolled thrusts that meant Hakkai was losing it too. Gojyo came fast, spurting over Hakkai's hand, over the sheets and his own stomach. Hakkai clung to him, finding his mouth again, one hand braced by Gojyo's head as he shivered all over and came inside him.

Hakkai only lay still for a few moments and then he was carefully drawing out and unpicking the knots one by one, with quick fingers that were not entirely steady. Gojyo rolled on his side and watched. His wrists had red lines imprinted on them, winding round each arm. Hakkai took each one between his hands and stroked them, rubbing away the soreness. He wasn't even using qi, just the warmth of his hands.

"Is that better?" he asked.

Hakkai was lying on his side, gazing at him across the pillow. He looked good; warm and relaxed and his mouth still red and swollen-looking.

"Yeah. You gonna do that to my ass too?" Gojyo said, inching closer.

"Maybe," Hakkai said. “Do you deserve it?”

The bed really was too small, but it didn't matter.

Date: 2007-03-02 12:51 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] i-am-zan.livejournal.com
MM.mmmm..Yummy!

SO much love and heart!

Date: 2007-03-05 01:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] louiselux.livejournal.com
Thank you! :D

Date: 2007-03-02 01:06 pm (UTC)
indelicateink: Gojyo lying on the floor (saiyuki gojyo abandoned)
From: [personal profile] indelicateink
*flails* *quite a bit*

Just perfect. (And I really love the idea that they use Gojyo's promiscuousness. Definitely a darker take on the 58.) ♥

*wanders off to start her Friday, which can't possibly be bad now!* XD

Date: 2007-03-05 01:04 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] louiselux.livejournal.com
Thank you!

I'm rather glad you liked what I did with that - it did give things a darker twist.

Date: 2007-03-02 01:08 pm (UTC)
scribblemoose: image of moose with pen and paper (hakkai-gojyo kiss)
From: [personal profile] scribblemoose
Guh!

*Falls over*

So hot. And so them. Excellent stuff as ever. :)

Date: 2007-03-05 01:04 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] louiselux.livejournal.com
Thank you. Glad you liked it. *g*

Date: 2007-03-02 01:42 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] giving-ground.livejournal.com
Oh. Mmm. Very nice. Very nice indeed. *grin*

Date: 2007-03-05 01:05 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] louiselux.livejournal.com
Thank you!

Date: 2007-03-02 02:00 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sedens.livejournal.com
Besides all the delicious hotness, there's this: Except what they said to each other never seemed to matter. Words were spoken and burned away.

So very right--that's exactly why I come back for more and more and more of your Hakkai/Gojyo.

Date: 2007-03-05 07:42 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] louiselux.livejournal.com
Thank you so much!

That line is one I thought of on about the third draught, so I'm glad you like it. It fits with the idea I have of them - talking but not talking about the things that really matter.

Date: 2007-03-02 02:20 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kispexi2.livejournal.com
Whoa! *fans self*

Date: 2007-03-05 09:35 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] louiselux.livejournal.com
Yay! Thanks :D

Date: 2007-03-02 03:35 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] emungere.livejournal.com
Oh, guh. Hot. And I love this:

He wasn't even using qi, just the warmth of his hands.

I'm not even sure why. It's just so sweet and normal of him after all that.

Date: 2007-03-07 09:07 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] louiselux.livejournal.com
And let's face it, he's got to be sweet and normal sometimes. It's the law of averages. Or something. The law of Hakkai!

Hakkai's diary: "Must be normal today, people beginning to think I'm manipulative and scary. Which, of course, I'm not."

Date: 2007-03-02 05:48 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] therhoda.livejournal.com
oh uhhh, i think my brain melted.


Really i had a coment right up until the end then i lost it. You know dear if making lists and being stalked does this, you may want to think of more lists.

Date: 2007-03-07 09:04 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] louiselux.livejournal.com
Lists, lists. Mmmmm.

Very glad you liked it!

Date: 2007-03-02 05:55 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] daegaer.livejournal.com
GUUUUUH.

"Gojyo," Hakkai whispered, sounding all hot and shaky and on the edge.

Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

Date: 2007-03-07 09:03 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] louiselux.livejournal.com
Yay! Glad it inspired a gigantic mmmmmm. :D

Date: 2007-03-02 11:03 pm (UTC)
ext_24935: made by <lj user="seapoke"> (8 pwns)
From: [identity profile] devikun.livejournal.com
So seconding [livejournal.com profile] daegaer's GUUUUUUH. With an added HOLY MOLY of my own. Just love that edge-of-but-still-holding-back possessiveness in Hakkai here. SO HOT. And Gojyo's eagernesswillingness to be owned. And that near edge of disaster that they're both flirting with in these lines:


"As if you give a shit who else I screw," Gojyo said, the last word turning into a low groan as Hakkai pushed inside him. "As long as you get some."

"Yes," Hakkai said, and his voice was shaking and very soft. "That must be it."


God I love you!

Date: 2007-03-07 09:02 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] louiselux.livejournal.com
Aw, thank you :) I did get a lot of satisfaction from writing them like this, with a fine line being trod between hurting each other and turning each other on. I'm really glad you enjoyed it so much!

Date: 2007-03-02 11:15 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] amai-kaminari.livejournal.com
Very hot! And so much love! ♥♥♥

Loved Gojyo's inner confession:

But I always come home, he wanted to say. The words rang in his head, stupidly plaintive, but he couldn't make himself say them.

And Hakkai's innate understanding of him... and the tenderness:

Hakkai took each one between his hands and stroked them, rubbing away the soreness. He wasn't even using qi, just the warmth of his hands.

Date: 2007-03-07 08:59 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] louiselux.livejournal.com
Thank you so much! In fact, this whole fic idea might be about confession, or something along those lines. It's definitely about honesty and understanding.

Date: 2007-03-03 01:04 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sffan.livejournal.com
Excuse me while I get the fire extinguisher...

Date: 2007-03-06 11:30 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] louiselux.livejournal.com
Hee! *hoses you down*

Okay, that sounds dirty.

Date: 2007-03-03 01:58 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mistressrenet.livejournal.com
You make wrong so hot and loving. :D

Date: 2007-03-06 11:30 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] louiselux.livejournal.com
Eeee! Thanks! I was trying for that so much with this - a little bit twisted, like they both have the potential for.

Date: 2007-03-03 02:45 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lifeasacloud.livejournal.com
And the award for best smut writing goes to.. YOU.

Seriously, that was hot, and at the same time, there was that emotional undertone and depth. Strange - the way HakkaixGojyo should be. I don't think I have read anything quite as hot.

Cheers to you!

Date: 2007-03-06 11:28 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] louiselux.livejournal.com
Aw, thank you so much. That is quite a compliment! I'm really glad you liked it.

Date: 2007-03-05 05:22 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] notfromvenus.livejournal.com
::gurgles:: Wow. Oh man, pushing all the buttons here. That was hot and yummy and hot and intense and did I say hot? I think I need a cold shower....... ::flails, dies of teh sexiness:: That was like, the hottest thing ever. Ever. (And for me!! ::squee::) :D

Date: 2007-03-06 11:27 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] louiselux.livejournal.com
Thank you! I'm very very pleased you liked it. I wasn't sure if it was quite what you requested though - didn't manage the gag!

Date: 2007-03-06 11:43 pm (UTC)
threewalls: threewalls (Default)
From: [personal profile] threewalls
Thank you.

I love how they use sex here to have a conversation about the inherent conflict between Gojyo's promiscuity and Hakkai's possessiveness that they wouldn't otherwise have, like a fight and the make-up sex all in one-- and that neither is presented as wholly 'right' or 'wrong', and that this is a conflict to be negotiated not avoided. This was wonderful.

Date: 2007-03-07 08:15 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] louiselux.livejournal.com
Thank you so much. I was so happy to read your comment, because you really got to the heart of what is happening. Like a fight and make up sex in one - I like that very much. :)

Date: 2007-03-07 12:48 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] toscas-kiss.livejournal.com
Omigod. [melts]
Whoah. Awesome. I do so love Gojyo tied up...

Date: 2007-03-07 08:53 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] louiselux.livejournal.com
Me too...

Thank you!

Date: 2007-03-07 02:30 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] crystal-lilly.livejournal.com
Somehow... you took a simple request (Gojyo tied up) and turned it into this and I absolutely love it! I am amazed at how well you captured the dark edge that both Hakkai and Gojyo flirt with constantly, especially Hakkai and his demon side, and then the thought that Gojyo uses his sleeping around in order to tell Hakkai how important he is.... Yes, I am in awe of you.

This part is pure love:

But I always come home, he wanted to say. The words rang in his head, stupidly plaintive, but he couldn't make himself say them.

Thank you for sharing this lovely wonderful story.

Date: 2007-03-07 08:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] louiselux.livejournal.com
I'm really glad you enjoyed this so much. I wanted to write more about Hakkai and Gojyo and how all the unspoken things between them might come out - and maybe this is a reflection on how they find a balance their human and youkai sides.

Thanks very much for the comments!

Date: 2007-03-09 03:37 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] bunnysquee.livejournal.com
wow! this was hot! and not-sorry-at-all!gojyo is just delicious!

thank you for writing and sharing.

Date: 2007-03-11 05:51 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] louiselux.livejournal.com
Thank you. Exactly right. Gojyo really is not sorry, I think. :)

Date: 2007-03-11 12:05 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] inksheddings.livejournal.com
He didn't want to get free, that was the freaky thing. He tried not to think about it too much.

And I am very thankful he was fine with being tied up. *g*

Truly enjoyable read, and while the sex was awesome, Gojyo's thoughts and how Hakkai expressed himself physically... the combination was perfect.

Date: 2007-03-11 05:52 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] louiselux.livejournal.com
Thank you very much indeed!

Date: 2007-03-19 03:12 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] new-kate.livejournal.com
omg youuuuu
*faints*
Thoughtful character study through unspeakable, gorgeous hotness. Life is sooooo good. Thank you.

Date: 2007-03-22 10:59 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] louiselux.livejournal.com
Yay I got the Len and Joe pwning icon! Thank you. :D

Date: 2007-05-20 03:54 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] baka-gaijin.livejournal.com
~ hummmmmmmms contentedly ~

You really do have a great way of telling a story. So much detail packed into so few words. Thanks so much to [personal profile] cicer for rec'ing it.

Date: 2007-10-06 07:35 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] bloody-soul58.livejournal.com
*perverted laugh*
I love *_* even if I prefer 58 to 85, I LOVE!

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