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Apr. 6th, 2002 11:50 pmMatthew and I were discussing my new West Wing obsession last night. He said at one point, 'I'm not sure this is very healthy', or words to that effect. Is it healthy? I know it's not cool, and possibly a bit sad to have such a ridiculously good time reading stories about characters in tv shows. But hey, I never said I was cool.
But is it healthy? It's like a never-ending need to consume. Getting into a new fandom is like falling in love. You think about your new fandom all the time, and find yourself lying awake at night thinking about it, getting distracted at work, writing it love letters. Sometimes I'm surprised that M isn't jealous.
I know I enjoy fanfiction a lot, but the thing that feels most unhealthy is that I don't tell everyone about it, and so never get to have real life conversations about this thing that is a fairly important part of my life A couple of my friends know, but I guess they think it's a bit of an odd thing to do, but accept it because it's me. M is the only person I ever talk about slash with, and he doesn't read it so I can't have a discussion about particular stories etc.
I suppose I don't tell everyone because I'm anticipating their negative reactions and the consequent need to justify myself. Perhaps I'll be brave and just mention it a bit more, in passing. 'oh, I read some really fantastic homoerotic stories last week. You remember the X-Files, right..?' Ho hum. Maybe.
But is it healthy? It's like a never-ending need to consume. Getting into a new fandom is like falling in love. You think about your new fandom all the time, and find yourself lying awake at night thinking about it, getting distracted at work, writing it love letters. Sometimes I'm surprised that M isn't jealous.
I know I enjoy fanfiction a lot, but the thing that feels most unhealthy is that I don't tell everyone about it, and so never get to have real life conversations about this thing that is a fairly important part of my life A couple of my friends know, but I guess they think it's a bit of an odd thing to do, but accept it because it's me. M is the only person I ever talk about slash with, and he doesn't read it so I can't have a discussion about particular stories etc.
I suppose I don't tell everyone because I'm anticipating their negative reactions and the consequent need to justify myself. Perhaps I'll be brave and just mention it a bit more, in passing. 'oh, I read some really fantastic homoerotic stories last week. You remember the X-Files, right..?' Ho hum. Maybe.
